tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-77263600425081320622024-03-13T17:34:21.251-04:00Journey to my baby with PCOSA safe zone to express my feelings during this phase in my life. I share for personal benefits, to educate & keep my family & friends updated and with hopes to inform and offer support to those who are and those who know someone who is going through infertility and health issues.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.comBlogger59125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-66022159947738936762011-12-30T22:25:00.000-05:002011-12-30T22:25:52.242-05:00Missing Posts...into the New YearI apologize for my missing attendance. I had a very close passing in my family and have not had the motivation on thought process to come here. I will say this year has been a struggle for me and I am happy to bring it to an end. Hopefully there will be better experiences and joys I can share with you for 2012. Until then have a very safe and successful New Years. And for my ttc peers to much sticky baby dust for the year 2012.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-37983624195222232842011-12-13T11:26:00.000-05:002011-12-13T11:26:59.314-05:00Day 13 - List 5 guilty pleasures.<ol><li>Home made Chocolate Chip Cookies</li>
<li>Baked Macaroni & Cheese</li>
<li>Double layer chocolate cake</li>
<li>Calling out of work just because</li>
<li>Wine Night.</li>
</ol>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-64007584952072329162011-12-13T11:16:00.000-05:002011-12-13T11:16:39.943-05:00Day 12 - List 5 pet peeves.<ol><li>Irresponsible/Abusive/Neglectful "parents".</li>
<li>Hypocrites</li>
<li>Males who think they are men but do not behave as such</li>
<li>Cheaters</li>
<li>Adults (in age) who never grow up.</li>
</ol>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-28094613744620709032011-12-13T11:13:00.000-05:002011-12-13T11:13:58.674-05:00Day 11 - If you could have 3 wishes, what would they be?<ol><li>To have unlimited wishes</li>
<li>To be able to ovulate, conceive, carry a healthy pregnancy, and give birth to 12 healthy babies</li>
<li>Continual financial security to maintain myself and my loved ones.</li>
</ol>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-41598416002144863832011-12-13T11:12:00.000-05:002011-12-13T11:12:33.386-05:00Day 10 - What is your favorite book?<div align="center">This changes with time but currently it is</div><div align="center">The Help by Kathryn Stockett</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-PSns84OoWog/Tud5W4UOC2I/AAAAAAAAALU/ecEGU5JWoxI/s1600/thehelp.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-PSns84OoWog/Tud5W4UOC2I/AAAAAAAAALU/ecEGU5JWoxI/s1600/thehelp.bmp" /></a></div><div align="center"></div>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-6264907024632023842011-12-13T11:09:00.000-05:002011-12-13T11:09:52.132-05:00Day 9 - List 5 things you want to do before you die.<ol><li>learn how to swim</li>
<li>travel to all of my points of interest</li>
<li>have a lavish platinum wedding</li>
<li>open my own business</li>
<li>complete my travel wish list.</li>
</ol>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-58078031636611787822011-12-13T11:04:00.000-05:002011-12-13T11:04:22.925-05:00Day 8 - Describe your dream vacation.<div align="center"><a href="http://www.bedarra.com.au/">http://www.bedarra.com.au/</a></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-size: large;">Bedarra Great Barrier Reef Luxury Resort</span></strong></div><div style="text-align: center;"> One of the world’s most exclusive resorts and is the ultimate 5 star luxury island resort experience.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Bedarra Island is a boutique island resort at the Great Barrier Reef in Queensland. </div><div style="text-align: center;">With just 16 architecturally refined Villas nestled into the rainforest, Bedarra Island is very much a place for the dedicated few.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Venture from your boutique Villa and discover exquisite food, flawless service and secluded beaches.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Slip away to a private bay with a gourmet hamper and your own dinghy or indulge with a therapeutic spa treatment. On Bedarra Island it’s all about peace, privacy, and the ultimate holiday in tropical style luxury.</div>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-90931768915422268632011-12-13T10:56:00.000-05:002011-12-13T10:56:01.170-05:00Day 7 - Where do you like to shop?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-RC_eoo5o61E/Tud1HbqmyVI/AAAAAAAAAJU/ibKbsMhylS0/s1600/amazon.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-RC_eoo5o61E/Tud1HbqmyVI/AAAAAAAAAJU/ibKbsMhylS0/s1600/amazon.bmp" /></a></div><br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-Tnen2GIqMqc/Tud1e93bLDI/AAAAAAAAALM/ouq6sJ6C7LA/s1600/vs.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-Tnen2GIqMqc/Tud1e93bLDI/AAAAAAAAALM/ouq6sJ6C7LA/s1600/vs.jpg" /></a></div><div align="center"></div>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-89077007644857880932011-12-13T10:10:00.000-05:002011-12-13T10:10:16.994-05:00Day 6- A picture of something that makes you happy.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-QlAG0ilWPKA/TuddIWXG05I/AAAAAAAAAI8/u-vJ5iQa1cY/s1600/Arion+11months" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="189" oda="true" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-QlAG0ilWPKA/TuddIWXG05I/AAAAAAAAAI8/u-vJ5iQa1cY/s320/Arion+11months" width="320" /></a></div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div align="center">My sugar dumpling Niece Arion. Very old pic, she is 4 now but one of my favorites.</div>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-74146127039314445812011-12-12T19:21:00.000-05:002011-12-12T19:21:33.693-05:00Day 5 - 15 facts about yourself.1. I love chocolate, cheese, and wine seperately but equally.<br />
2. My family blood and nonblood related are the most important to me.<br />
3. I am a irrationally emotional individual with some ugly tendencies when the hormones are high.<br />
4. I disengaged with God for a short while after the passing of my grandmother.<br />
5. I have struggled with repeating #4 while enduring this challenging stage in my life.<br />
6. I was married at the age of 23.<br />
7. I was divorced at the age of 27.<br />
8. I have been in my current relationship for 4 years and I am 4 years older than he is.<br />
9. I love the color pink.<br />
10. I love to plan events/parties/decorate.<br />
11. 90% of my life decisions are based on my thoughts of what will happen afterwards.<br />
12. Most recently I have adapted this very bothersome habit of judgement...some would argue it's always been here but will agree it is far worst.<br />
13. I have control issues.<br />
14. I have a very minor case of OCD.<br />
15. When I was a child I wanted to be a pediatrician...until I realized I dont have the stomach for the gore, the heart to see a child hurting, or the patience for an abusive/neglectful parent.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-814479700443548302011-12-12T19:10:00.000-05:002011-12-12T19:10:28.816-05:00Day 4 - If you won the lottery what would you blow your money on (after charity and bills, of course) list 10 material possessions you would buy for yourself.<div style="text-align: center;">In no particular order</div><div style="text-align: center;">10....The Philadelphia Eagles....I bleed green </div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-1JENc23JIbM/TuaMYVnp-KI/AAAAAAAAAGo/IRIk1Nykz0U/s1600/philadelphiaeagles.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-1JENc23JIbM/TuaMYVnp-KI/AAAAAAAAAGo/IRIk1Nykz0U/s1600/philadelphiaeagles.bmp" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">9.....Emeralds, rings, earrings, bracelets galore (Yay! I love my birthstones)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-0u3jL9-6r0g/TuaNFg5g_AI/AAAAAAAAAGw/krr08LH4gp8/s1600/Emeralds.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-0u3jL9-6r0g/TuaNFg5g_AI/AAAAAAAAAGw/krr08LH4gp8/s1600/Emeralds.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">8.....Mansion in Dubai</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-jRRnj2ecJho/TuaNojRMIAI/AAAAAAAAAG4/dzZHqEpommw/s1600/Dubai.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-jRRnj2ecJho/TuaNojRMIAI/AAAAAAAAAG4/dzZHqEpommw/s1600/Dubai.jpg" /></a></div><br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">7.....A natural habitat for endangered big cats ( yes I love cats...all sizes and if I had the money I would so do this.)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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<div align="center">6.....Barbie Paradise for my Niece...her happiness keeps me happy.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-a0ZS4etdT9k/TuaPPsCI9PI/AAAAAAAAAHQ/jAPFTY3f2jc/s1600/Barbiehome.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-a0ZS4etdT9k/TuaPPsCI9PI/AAAAAAAAAHQ/jAPFTY3f2jc/s1600/Barbiehome.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div align="center">5.....Live productions of my favorite movies/plays ( Can you tell I like musicals...lol)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Vfh56Qw8V0Y/TuaQMo9ZblI/AAAAAAAAAHY/7FCOBNU2EBc/s1600/sound+of+music.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Vfh56Qw8V0Y/TuaQMo9ZblI/AAAAAAAAAHY/7FCOBNU2EBc/s1600/sound+of+music.bmp" /></a></div><br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-EjSOGtbzc7E/TuaQouRBqPI/AAAAAAAAAH0/ptmDwDqDk0I/s1600/lsoh.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-EjSOGtbzc7E/TuaQouRBqPI/AAAAAAAAAH0/ptmDwDqDk0I/s1600/lsoh.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;">4.....A one year vacation to Brazil</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-Fcrf5A--sb4/TuaRXLYsmzI/AAAAAAAAAH8/-PSJeIIfN_A/s1600/brazil1.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-Fcrf5A--sb4/TuaRXLYsmzI/AAAAAAAAAH8/-PSJeIIfN_A/s1600/brazil1.bmp" /></a></div><br />
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</div><div align="center">3....All expense paid family trip to Australia for the month of December to cruise the Pacific Ocean island of Kiritimati (Christmas Island), the eastern-most island in the island nation of Kiribati for the official First New Years Celebration</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-GS0NHL7DfnU/TuaT1GWyn_I/AAAAAAAAAIM/UHDQa8mo-NU/s1600/xmasisland1.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" oda="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-GS0NHL7DfnU/TuaT1GWyn_I/AAAAAAAAAIM/UHDQa8mo-NU/s1600/xmasisland1.bmp" /></a></div><br />
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</div>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-7391418713189112892011-12-12T18:18:00.000-05:002011-12-12T18:18:30.489-05:00Day 3 - What's in your makeup bag?Under constructionLeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-76843969210611841552011-12-12T18:16:00.000-05:002011-12-12T18:16:28.316-05:00Tribute to a Great LadyHappy Birthday Nana! I miss you and love you very much. Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-56749164749962984232011-12-06T08:57:00.000-05:002011-12-06T08:57:40.168-05:00Day 2 - What's in your handbag?under construction...Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-63106670089251552122011-12-06T08:56:00.000-05:002011-12-06T08:56:43.864-05:00Day 1 - What is the meaning behind your blog name?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-GhQHvTX_Els/Tt4ezB8wCMI/AAAAAAAAAGg/xWScVg-fGtc/s1600/untitled.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" dda="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-GhQHvTX_Els/Tt4ezB8wCMI/AAAAAAAAAGg/xWScVg-fGtc/s1600/untitled.bmp" /></a></div><br />
<span style="color: magenta;">I think this is self explanatory. I have PCOS and I am trying to have a baby. Even though the initial goal was pregnancy, that may not be my journey...it may be through some other avenue...so I like the end results. I will admit the blog wasn't entirely my idea...when I first started breaking down and was seeking therapy it was suggested by my counselor. One of the best things I have done. </span>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-9685940687122486062011-12-06T08:17:00.001-05:002011-12-06T08:24:01.891-05:00Thirty Day Blog Challenge<div style="text-align: center;"> <img border="0" dda="true" height="282" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-Y0nfZga4p7I/Tt4XAVOET9I/AAAAAAAAAGY/xAtrE8aqWc0/s320/30_day_blog_challenge.jpg" width="320" /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div>I have recently started following <span style="color: magenta;">pinklipglossandprenatals</span> and decided to do the <span style="color: magenta;">30 Day Blog Challenge</span> she created. It gives the old and new an opportunity to get to know me better. The first 15 will be about me, and the next 15 will be about my infertility journey. Technically I am on day 6 so there will be six posts today. This way I can end the challenge on December 30, right before the start of the new year. Hope you enjoy.<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">Day 1 - What is the meaning behind your blog name?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 2 - What's in your handbag?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 3 - What's in your makeup bag?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 4 - If you won the lottery what would you blow your money on (after charity and bills, of course) list 10 material possessions you would buy for yourself.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 5 - 15 facts about yourself.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 6- A picture of something that makes you happy.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 7 - Where do you like to shop?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 8 - Describe your dream vacation.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 9 - List 5 things you want to do before you die.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 10 - What is your favorite book?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 11 - If you could have 3 wishes, what would they be?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 12 - List 5 pet peeves.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 13 - List 5 guilty pleasures.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 14 - Put your iPad on shuffle. List the first 10 songs that play.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 15 - Show your favorite outfit or fashion pieces.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 16 - How did you and your partner decide when you were ready to start trying to conceive?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 17 - Discuss the most ridiculous thing you ever heard about conception. Where did you hear it? Did it work for someone else? Did you try it?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 18 - Besides Mothers Day, what is the hardest holiday for you as an infertile?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 19 - Write a letter (one that you never have to send) to a fertile in your life. Did they hurt you? Support you? Tell them how you feel, all the things you can’t bring yourself to say in person.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 20 - Discuss how you found your way into the ALI community, and what being part of it has meant to you – good and bad.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 21 - If you had gotten pregnant that first month you started trying, how would you have been a different parent? What changes have you made to your parenting style (either current or future) in the time you spent trying to conceive?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 22 - What was the first baby or pregnancy-related purchase you ever made? Was it before or after you started trying to conceive? Or was it after you were already pregnant? Why did you choose that particular item to buy first? If you haven’t purchased anything yet, why not?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 23 - Talk about how you chose your RE.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 24 - If a very observant stranger were to walk into your house, what clues could lead them to believe that you have struggled with infertility?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 25 - Have you ever bonded with someone IRL over infertility?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 26 - Were you the product of infertility? Was anyone you know the product of infertility? How do you know? Or do you just suspect based on circumstances like age differences between siblings, time between marriage and conception, etc.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 27 - Talk about a time when you made someone in your life understand more about infertility.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 28 - What do you use the “nursery” for right now? If you already had a baby, what did you use it for before pregnancy?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 29 - If you had known that you would have trouble conceiving, what would you have done differently in life? If you already knew, did that knowledge affect your other life choices?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 30 -Tell us about a friendship you lost or a relationship that changed for the worse because of infertility.</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-Y0nfZga4p7I/Tt4XAVOET9I/AAAAAAAAAGY/xAtrE8aqWc0/s1600/30_day_blog_challenge.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"></a></div>Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-10487977907429991512011-12-06T08:06:00.000-05:002011-12-06T08:06:29.316-05:00FaithFaith is a tricky thing...especially in this race to create life. My cousin Geraldine who is more like an Aunt to me is very ill and in the hospital. The entire situation reflects on my experience during the last days of my Nana's time here on earth. Her oldest daughter Nicole, my very close cousing is carrying a burden I only wish I could remove. I get so geared up on the life I want to carry and give birth to it comes easy to lose sight of the blessing surrounding me whose time together is precious. I dont fair well with death...but I must be strong for my cousin, give her the support she needs, hold her up as she breaks down....this is going to be a hard day.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-20409717410066159872011-12-05T19:36:00.000-05:002011-12-05T19:36:12.233-05:00Three Days LaterIt is amazing what two days of no bleeding will do for your mental, physical, and emotional well being. Granted I had to come back to work today...and I noticed it wasn't my illness that made me dread this place. I have been directly and indirectly been advised by many of my friends and family to get into event planning, however in my area, in this economy with no real start up it is suicide. I can't deny the calling is strong and just the thought of planning something brings light to my eyes, but the financial instability scares me more. I did apply for a david's bridal position that would ultimately be a 58% decrease in salary but will probably bring 100% satisfaction and joy to my life. I will leave it in the hands of fate for now. If they call, and hire me I will take this a God's push towards something better.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-22212905966160733752011-12-02T20:33:00.000-05:002011-12-02T20:33:06.522-05:00HysteroscopyWell the dreaded procedure came and went. I am extremely glad I look for excellent bedside manner as a top requirement for all of my doctors. The surgical physician made the transition so easy :) Based on his initial results there are no underlying reasons for my abnormal bleeding and pain besides the hormonal imbalance placed on me by PCOS. BAsically my uterus is healthy except for scattered scar tissue from previous surgeries, but they say it's nothing that will interfer with a baby implanting. He was able to complete the D&C and currently I am "spotting". So now we wait for my RE to review the Recording and hopefully when we talk on Monday I will not be bleeding. My goal is to get meds that will keep me blood free for at least the next 90 days...jump start my exercise routine to shed as much weight as possible and start the injection medicine to help me ovulate late March early April. Well at least that's the "plan". It really seems like all of my issues are hormonal, this is driving me more than ever to lose weight to help this imbalance. Anyway I am going to take this relief as positive and enjoy the relief from pain. I will keep you posted. :)Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-24058014472694906732011-12-01T15:49:00.001-05:002011-12-01T15:51:15.621-05:00The day before SurgeryI can honestly sit here and say I am scared. Add this to naturally being emotional, hormonal imbalance, and consistent pain and bleeding for 87 days is a recipe for insanity. I don't know if I am coming or going...and with all of this I think I need to start going to therapy to get these thoughts, doubts, pains, and overall burdens off of my chest. Not so much to get a solution or answer, but an opportunity to be in an environment where I can express myself, cry, scream, etc without fears of worrying my family, being judged, or the worst of all they constantly telling me it will be ok. I know they mean well but it hasn't gotten better and they don't know if it will get better. I will say this, chronic pain makes you miserable inside and out. Most days I don't feel like myself and am snapping at the slightest things. I pray that this surgery is a positive start to the successful journey for my baby.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-30633916704888544742011-11-28T19:06:00.001-05:002011-12-01T15:51:56.276-05:00Pain, Pills & ProceduresIf I am correct I am on day 84 of consistent bleeding.....and I didn't think it was possible but my pains have increased. I am noticing my pains are more unbearable when I am passing clots, which also brings heavier bleeding. I just feel drained, completely tired. They have adjusted my progesterone again starting today and have changed my pain meds to Tylenol #3. I guess this is the last step before I am back on opium based pain meds.....something I wish not to go to. I also have a Hysteroscopy scheduled for Friday...with the option to proceed with additional treatment based on what they find. This will be my third one...my first in 99, my second in 04 and now this one. With my second one they also took biopsy and performed a D&C....my bleeding stopped for a few weeks and with meds I was able to get some type of "balance"...however that was 7 years and 150lbs ago...the heavier you are the more difficult this is. It's crazy I decided on my last cycle of clomid in August to take 6 months off and try and lose 60 lbs. I started my "cycle" as normal on the 6th of September and have not stopped bleeding. Slow but consistent weight gain, and ever so debilitating pains. I hope there is resolution soon, my options for pregnancy friendly options are running out. My wait to try again may be longer than I want, however I need to focus on this because until this is controlled there is no option for anything else.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-13853236175892382062011-11-16T16:08:00.000-05:002011-11-16T16:08:52.013-05:00I don't want to work anymoreI feel like I have been working towards things all of my life. Working for a better lifestyle, working for a better education, working for a better relationship, working for a better health condition, working for a baby, working "fill in the blank here" and I am tired. I may have to come to terms that I will not have biological children, or any children for that matter. I dont think I have the tolerance or emotional stability to go through adoption. And that is pretty much my only option. It is selfish but I want my own child...I want a mini likeness of me. I want the entire pregnacy experience including morning sickness, and heartburn. I want to be able to lay next to my husband as he rubs my belly and we bond together with our child long before he is brought into this world. This is truly a frustrating time for me.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-39756719315015544272011-11-16T15:56:00.000-05:002011-11-16T15:56:53.835-05:00ConversationMy nurse called and i have to come in for a full exam, bloodwork, biopsy,and ultrasound. She will try to get to the bottom of this marathon bleeding and pain. I am not optimistic, but while I am there I will have a very frank conversation with her about having a hysterectomy.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-77722909856013299092011-11-15T20:42:00.001-05:002011-12-01T15:52:45.450-05:00Decision timeAs I end day 71 of continuous bleeding even with me being on progestin for the last half of this time I fear I have reached my crossroads. I am tired of blood, and I am tired of pain. I don't want to live my life in fear and I feel every decision I make is based on my condition....my job, my relationship, my livelihood. I don't mean to sound so final but I am far to old to continue to wait on something to change. I have been battling the symptoms of my disorder for almost 20 years...and trying to fill my desire for children for at least the last 10. I don't have the answers....the experts don't have the answers and if they can't stop the pain or bleeding am I really suppose to have blind faith that they will get me to ovulate, conceive and carry to term? I never thought I would be seriously considering a hysterectomy...but its in my thoughts nowadays more and more. I can't continue being sick...being in pain and gaining weight.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7726360042508132062.post-27155464375653919212011-11-09T23:23:00.000-05:002011-11-09T23:23:41.369-05:00My heart hurts....My heart hurts and you are the only thing that can erase this pain.<br />
As soon as I open my eyes my thoughts are of you<br />
When I dream at night I see your smile<br />
As I walk through the day I hear your voice<br />
And as the days grow old I yearn to hold you..smell you<br />
For you have not come into my existence yet you are so real to me.<br />
Many do not understand the love I have for you, but you do and that is all that matters.Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13798272103239798561noreply@blogger.com0