Today was my appointment to see if the Femara induced follicles for ovulation. The answer is a big fat no. It is amazing how going in today I didn't think I would take this news so emotionally. Actually I didn't know what to expect, however today my disappointment associated this to always having to work hard or fight for things in my life. NOTHING has ever come easy and I truly believe I have reached my point of exhaustion. I would love to go home and nurse my feelings in bed for the day, but that is not my reality. I really think one of the worst parts of this is that I don't have chocolate and wine to support me on this journey. Thinking positive didn't work today.
Anonymous Quote: “Millions of couples suffer from infertility, so why is everyone pregnant but me?”
A safe zone to express my feelings during this phase in my life. I share for personal benefits, to educate & keep my family & friends updated and with hopes to inform and offer support to those who are and those who know someone who is going through infertility and health issues.
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Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Take a look at me
I turn 33 years old in 39 days. Ten years ago I did not see myself where I am today. Currently with a job I hate, taking classes to get a degree I am completely unmotivated for, morbidly obese, dealing with PCOS, and consistent pain associated with my condition. I am sad more than not lately and I am tired of my surroundings. I can honestly say my spirit is broken and I do not know if I have the will or want to fix it. I remember when I was young and couldn't express myself verbally I would write. Sometimes you need to vent, not be judged, not be "saved", not be fixed, just to be listened to......even when there is no one there. Sometimes a problem has to linger before it is able to be fixed. Sometimes a problem is not fixable. Writing is a therapy that had been pushed aside in my adolescence and now I will use it as my tool for acceptance of what I am currently dealing with. I intend to use this blog for my personal sound boards, mostly to release my tensions, fears, pains, anger and desires, but also to use as reflections for growth and maybe open it to assist others. These are my feelings in their rawest form so if by chance I have invited you to this page of my life please do not be offended by what I write.
~Toya
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